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Pink Sky, Grey Clouds
Rain fell in pastel
Long day, long drive
Braindead, still alive
Lie down, face-up
Deadset to collect dust
Useless, I'll bet
If not for my skillset
Longing, tension
I have dimension
I'm outside. It makes me static
Do I take the blame for the times I shatter?
If it ends the same do the means even matter?
But if you ask me I'm fine
But if you ask me I'm fine
Come down? Can I?
Without it what am I?
Hollow? Empath?
I'm reading my forecast:
Hungry. Burnout.
Washup. Sellout.
It's only one thing
I need to mean something.
But if you ask me I'm fine
But if you ask me I'm fine
But if you ask me I'm fine
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I don't really want to turn you off, but I feel like I did exactly that last night
Then I wonder, while our clothing's off, if I'll make it out of your bedroom tonight
Sometimes I take my time when I'm heading home cause the potholes rely
On nothing more than just me as I escape from the city that sucks me dry
And I don't know what it is about this place that fucks me overtime I try
Last night when we were getting high I wondered if my phone should die right now
Should I even really charge it back cause no one ever really writes me back
And I've been thinking about The Beatles song that I'm gonna sing when I get a chance to try
But nothing ever comes as easy as the beers that I drink with you tonight
But it's easy
We can have it so easy
Your life can be so easy
We can make this so easy
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it’s your birthday today and I’ve got one thing to say
I’ve been thinking about you almost every day
and to me that’s just a given
And a sign of the ways that I’ve been livin
It makes me so damn sick the way I’m smitten
Blow out your candles
throw on sum sandals
Give me a handle
Throw me a bone
is it I, is that why, im coming on strong sometimes
Here’s your present dont open it yet! I’ve got more for you that you won’t forget
Its your 21st, heres a drink to quench the thirst, isn’t it the worst.
Ive been Chain smoking cigarettes, until I finish the rest
Sometimes the worst things make you feel the best
If I can survive October, If I can be a bigger man
Maybe luck will fall into my hand
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well somehow I didn't make the cut
but now I'm still in your race
and I could lose myself for days
across your hills
the pretty gaze
I am forever hungry
I wanna touch your skin
lie to me like you lied to me then
as you trace your heart over mine
my life in your arms tonight
it dies in my soul tonight
I lie awake here every night
alive wondering how it feels to die
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I lie all the time, but only to you
theres an issue in your gravity
it tears when trying to swallow me
so hollowly
so follow me to the river
drag my body through the winter
drag my body through your mind
and see what you can find
i sink every stone with a drone that wont fucking turn around
and nobody knows you've been exclusively fucking on the ground
so follow me to the river
i help you destroy your liver
ill help you find the time to realize whats right
i'll get to san diego without a dime in my pocket
or a hope for a healthy libido, or a handy bottle rocket
so go and get your joystick, we're going to war
i'll do my best impression of an open door
a flashlight ain't enough for the fog
i'm a rich bitch will toledo without a goddamn excuse
for my adderall superego and its subsequent abuse
oh, i could only ever say to you
a dog is a dog, is a master too
a dog is a dog is a dog is a dog is a dog
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I went down, down to the drug store
I couldn't find what they had in store
I couldn't even breathe it
I couldn't find no rhyme or reason
Take me, I'm still, still waiting
I couldn't find what I was doing
I couldn't breathe, or even find my choosin
I couldn't ask where I was going
I couldn't even find my God
Take me, I'm still breathing
I can't, are you still waiting
Take me, I'm still breathing
I can't, are you still waiting
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so much seems to depend on
the people you associate with
and i don't really know
what i'm gonna make of this
and if my head explodes the
next time that i create this
i'll pick it all back up and
write down all my frustrations
it's so profound
all the crazy shit i haven't even found
but i'm just stuck to the ground
and others are flying
i hope it's just clear where i stand
i don't wanna wonder what people think i am and
nobody wants to break a bubble but a bubble always breaks
so don't go and build another it's a huge mistake
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Have you ever felt it in your bones?
Unfathomable Weight, that you cant hold?
Maybe it’s all Just in your head
Sometimes I think about every thing I’ve done
Then I dream of dying alone
In a place by myself where no one else can see that
sometimes by yourself’s the best company
I wish I never went out, I wish I stayed in bed
But I know it’s dangerous to be alone in your head
Do you ever wish you had a soul?
An autonomous being with some control?
Maybe it’s all just in your head
Have you ever felt it in your bones?
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It’s on the tip of my tongue
Can’t find the words now
With everything I’ve done wrong
It comes out my mouth and flows away
I know what you’re thinking
It’s such bad taste
You can catch me blinking
Cause I know I’m better off alone
It’s on the tip of my tongue and I can’t see this side of me
I’m chopping trees with all my friends
It’s been a long time since I loved you
It’s been a long time since I’ve had the chance to tell you I’m paranoid
I can’t even think straight
We’re stuck in a hotel room doing ecstasy
You never liked me
All I get from this is anxiety
You pull away, against me
It’s safe to say when we get home we’re done, I knew you barely
They’re out to get me
I’m always waking up feeling worse
They’re out to get me
And I’ll never feel so half alone
They’re out to get me
I’m always waking up worse
They’re out to get me
I’ll never feel so half alone
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Foxtrot runner dancing down
I know its hard to stay awake
i know its hard to stay awake
Horizon fall
Missionaries crawl
I know its hard to stay awake, I renounce all since in a better place
And i still play dress up with my demons
mostly when my room goes black
i wish theyd take their beat up suitcase
so i know they wont come back
ive known for so damn long youve been whispering in my ear
how could i have know that youd become my biggest fear
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little birdie
perched at my window
sing to me as I wake
little bird
comfort me as I stir
oh your voice
how you sing
how the melody enchants
oh your wings
how you flu
watch them soar
through the trees
the few
how blue you must be
all alone
in the trees
little bird
youre just like me
all alone
in the breeze
little birdie
you should be
surrounded by trees of green
the city is no place
for a little bird like you
yet you sing nonetheless
perhaps I can learn from you
little birdie
perched at my window
sing to me as I wake
little bird
watch me as I soar
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Feel the quiver in my hands.
Splash some war paint on.
Carve my teeth real sharp,
Bare them big 'til dawn.
Indulge a moment's regret,
All lost in glass.
Biting hunger in my vains.
Feverish dreaming kiss.
Feast on everything
And vanish into mist.
Rising high into the cold black sky
Shivering wildly waiting this dread night to pass.
Scour barren lands,
Big holes in my shoes.
Proudly count on these worn hands
All the spoils I am waiting now to lose.
Flee porch lights like a cockroach,
Wait for death at braking tires.
No sleep for vampires.
A panicked scream through the rain.
Know I've left my mark.
Cast a doll into the storm drain,
Swallowed by the dark.
Dancing wildly with my demons
Until they come and make me leave the park.
Walk hand in hand
With grizzled men thrusting sharpened sticks.
Curse every brand.
Curse dark spots in my flesh from pleasure pricks.
Wrap myself in stolen velvet
On a burning funeral pyre.
No sleep for vampires.
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released September 4, 2020
Compiled by Maciej Lewicki and Jon Herroon, but mostly Maciej
Mastered by James Walsh
